People Are Visiting Me!

Dan is visiting next week!! He’s coming this Friday and staying for a week!! I’m SO excited. Nicky is also coming this week- MEGA happiness overload!! I have wrapped up everyone’s presents intending to send them in the post but now I can give Nicky hers!! Oh god, I’m SO SO hyper about it, I could burst.

I don’t understand Tony Harrison poems. They just don’t seem to be able to fit around my understanding. Middle English Romances aren’t floating my boat either. Sadface. So- course is rubbish, life is yay at the moment!

Valentine’s Day is next Sunday. That’s a week today. Dan will be here then. For that reason. I hope my housemates like him. I think they will, as he’s pretty easy to get along with and he’s “loveleh”!!

I spent the day today doing laundry. After being shocked that the time was 12:38 when I WOKE up, I leapt out of bed, got washed and dressed and ran down to the laundrette, only to find all working washing machines being used. This was about 4 washing machines. All of the others (about 8 others) were broken. So I had to wait. And wait. And wait. Until one of the working washing machines was available. I had two washes to do, whites and colours, so I had to wait some more for my colours to finish before I could load the whites because I wasn’t going to be able to use two washing machines at the same because there weren’t enough working. So yes, with the drying as well, it’s taken most of my day. Sadface.

After a weekend in an empty house, Hayley and Bex are back now. Leanne is coming back tomorrow. I seem to have taken a liking to soup but that’s not really relevant.

A New Twitter Discovery??

So exams are over and I’ve had not much to do for a while now. Lectures start again on Monday. Joy. We’ve planted an apple tree in the kitchen in a washed out baked beans tin. It’s rather cute but we understand it will take several years to grow.

Excited about Dan coming in a few weeks. I miss him SO much, as well as missing everyone else at home. I kinda want to come home before but I don’t think I can until the end of term which isn’t till the end of March. Sadface.

I’ve found myself reading a lot of magazines. With nothing to do and when you’re sick of reading books, you want something a bit less serious and fun. There’s no longer nothing I don’t know about Brad and Angelina or Dannii Minogue’s pregnancy. That’s really all a lot of people care about nowadays. Kinda sad really but that’s our world, I guess. Shallow shallow people.

I’ve been using Twitter a lot more. I thought it was crap when I first joined and to be honest, it still doesn’t rock my world but I am giving it a fair chance and using it regularly. I think I’ve found Peter on it. My first love who disappeared when I was 15. I’ve been looking for him on the internet every day since then and I think I’ve finally found him on Twitter. I’m not sure if it is him as there’s no photo on the profile but reading the tweets, it does sound like it could be him. I probably look like a weirdo for following him after all this time and he obviously has forgotten about me. I told Dan about this discovery and he got scared thinking I’d get talking to Peter again and fall back in love with him. That upset me a bit and I had to reassure him that I loved him and I wouldn’t love anyone else. Peter doesn’t deserve me, just taking off like that, at a time when he was my absolute everything. I’m angry at him more than anything but something about this profile does give me a bit of hope that we can maybe start talking again and be friends.

Wow, this blog seems to have taken the form of a ramble. Sorry kids!

Aber-Back

I’m back in Aber now and have been a while. No snow here, although there was some. Dad drove me up in the car and they stayed in a hotel in the town that night. Hayley was here, when I got here, as she’d arrived earlier that day. Bex came a few days later. Leanne still isn’t back. Sandra, of course, is always here. Well, she’s not. We never see her but.. you know what I mean.

I’ve had exams, I’m afraid. One down and only one to go but it’s still very stressful. I only need 40% of the whole year to be allowed to stay for the second year but I’d still like to do well. Apparently my essay on Edgar Allen Poe is ready for collection but I can’t really be bothered to go and get it, so I’ll just wait till I’m walking up that way.

The day before I came back, I went to Bromley to get a few essentials and came back with a Topshop dress. I don’t know how that happened, honest, but it’s a very nice cream colour and all lacey.

It’s been arranged for Dan to come and see me next month and I’m SO excited. He’s SO awesome, it’s unbelievable. I fall deeper in love with him every day and it’s great. His funny little links to stuff on MSN and Facebook make me laugh SO much and they do keep me going. I’m so lucky to have him. Can’t believe the amount of times I’ve been so stupid enough to almost lose him. Really does feel like I’m married to him but we’re not officially, obviously. I’m pretty sure there would be a very detailed blog describing my wedding day, if we had.

Back to the revision now, I suppose. Oh and there’s an annoying little kid with glasses who thinks he’s my friend. He keeps texting me asking to come round and the last time, I replied saying “Can you please not? I’m busy”…. I really hope he got the message.

Slush

I guess I should start packing up soon. Dad thinks he’ll be able to drive me back on Sunday, as the snow is clearing up now and apparently it’s warm in Aber.

I’m afraid I won’t be back here until late March now, which is very upsetting. I’ve realised that I like it at home but I am starting to miss Aber. I know, as soon as I get back, I’ll want to come back home but you always seem to want the opposite of what you’ve got.

Dan and me got married a few days ago. Not legally, obviously but we said our vows to each other. Kinda silly but we are trying to make it work. He’s coming to stay in Aber for a week in February/March. SO excited.

Having been fed up with the snow for quite some time, I am delighted that it’s all turning to slush. Slippery slush, mind you but I have some grippy shoes now. They’re really ugly looking walking shoes but ice and slippery stuff really scares me. How pathetic am I?

I’m determined to lose weight this year and when I’m living away from home and doing my own shopping, I must refrain from buying crap food. Problem is, I don’t like many fruit and veg but I guess you have to starve or punish yourself with foods you hate, if you want to be slim.

I should really write in this blog more regularly. I used to write every day, when I was at Bullers but back then, I always had something to write about. Kinda miss it but there’s no point always wanting something that’s never going to happen again.

I apologise if this blog has had a depressing, whiney tone to it.

There’s All This Snow Stuff Everywhere

So, it’s almost a week since the start of this new year. To be honest, I’ve been bogged down with work to really have fun. Going back to Aber on the 17th, possibly by train because of all this bloody snow. Dad doesn’t want to drive me there in all the snow. Sadface.

Hopefully seeing Dan some time next week. I want to see some other people too and I have Christmas presents still to give to a couple of people, otherwise I’ll send them by post. Snail mail, for the win!

I gave up Facebook. For 4 days. I had a bit of a sulk on New Year’s Day for no apparent reason other than to have a sulk. I always enter the new year grumpy for some reason and this year was no different. However, I’m hoping it’s going to be a pretty good year. Oh yeah, and I must lose weight. Want to drop 2 dress sizes by the summer.

It’s Sad When People You Know Become People You Knew

Last night, the night of seemingly unnecessary celebration, I held my lover’s hand. As his lips touched mine, the sky was covered with glitter and I knew then, that he was the only thing I had left. I held him so tightly because without him, I’d be alone with nothing but my mind for company, which I’ve never really got along with. Last night, you were out, having an awesome time. You’ll pretend it wasn’t really so great but what does it matter? You’re included, you’re not an outcast- it’s all ok eventually.

So, as I look back on this past year, I realise I’ve loved and found AND loved and lost. To that one person, who I know, knows who they are: it doesn’t matter how many people you talk to about me but don’t ever try to pretend that what we had wasn’t something special. Don’t ever try to pretend that you didn’t love me. It doesn’t matter how many people you slag me off to or how many of them believe the stories you tell them because I know that’s not how you really feel but my god, I just wish you’d admit it.

Christmas- New Year Transition

Christmas is over. Hearing the songs now just makes me depressed that it’s over. It all went so quickly! Now to New Year.

I think I’m seeing Dan and we’re going up to the London Eye for the fireworks. Should be awesome. We’ve had problems again recently but we always work through them. I guess that’s evidence he’s The One. I do love him. A lot.

I’ve been revising quite a bit. Still haven’t finished the book of course and I can’t see any study guides available to help me get to grips with it. North and South by Elizabeth Gaskell is the most boring novel I have ever read. It’s SO hard to get into and I have to write about it in the exam. Fun.

Kinda missing Aber, to be honest. It’s weird going from one atmosphere to another for a while. I’ve put on a lot of weight, my lovely parents told me. It’s true, I have but I hate being told it. I do need to lose quite a bit. Actually by that, I mean a lot.

I got a snow leopard for Christmas. Well, my mum adopted one for me. I was SO shocked when I realised that I had actually got one. I also got lots of money and DVDs and the most beautiful notebook I’ve ever seen! It’s full of parchment-style paper and it has a lovely embroidered cover. Gorgeous!

Ah well, back to the revision, I guess. Happy new year everyone!

Home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m home!!!! And it’s nearly Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SO SO excited! The fact I’m home for a while is SUPER exciting too.

My birthday was awesome! Saw all my family and got really nice presents- cash, DVDs, gift vouchers. The snow is AMAZING too but the ice is dangerous and scary.

I went to see Sophie tonight!! Was SO excited to see her and she gave me lovely presents and read me stories and I stroked her dogs and ate her chewy pasta and cuddled her LOADS. I want to see her again soon and everyone else.

We got our house for next year just before we came home! Paid the deposit and signed the contract. Yay! Alex is SO happy!

I’m FINALLY 19 and it’s amazing. I feel grown up now although I am still a teen, of course.

Drunkenness

My phone has died. It’s incredibly sad as I loved that little iphone SO much. Hopefully I’ll get another one for Christmas/birthday but no guarantees. Sadface.

HELL of a night last night at the Aber Christmas party and I remember very little. I’m sorry if you’re reading this, Dan, but you do already know I was drunk, so it’s ok. Hayley set me a challenge to drink half a bottle of red wine and a whole big bottle of Smirnoff Ice before 9pm. I did it with ease. I fell over on the way to the Union. I was that drunk before we even got there. Yes, I know I’m stupid. My heels were ridiculously high as well. However they were quite comfortable.

Getting more and more excited about Christmas now and going home! Want to see everyone again and have fun! Although I’m just starting to feel at home in Aber now and yet we’ll have to leave it for a month next week.

I better see you all when I come home. None of this “too busy, can’t be bothered” rubbish. I’m coming home and I want to see you!

December!!

Its December. December means Christmas and my birthday. Yay!

I’m getting incredibly excited about the next couple of weeks. Me and my housemates have a few good nights out planned before the end of term too and then I get to go home and see everyone I love and miss SO much!

Hearing more and more Christmas songs every day just reinforces the excitement and gets you in a really great mood. I have two Advent calendars, one chocolate, one boring pictures. The picture one came from my grandma.

Still having done NO Christmas shopping, I’m not panicking too much because I’ve bought wrapping paper. No actual presents to wrap up but I have bought the paper. That’s me thinking ahead.

I’m ready to go home now, despite my happiness at the moment. An online music magazine is regularly publishing articles I’ve written too, so that makes me happy! I’m also currently drinking Sprite. Maybe something to do with it?